this is so fucking gay but like sometimes i just really wonder if someone looks at me and instantly thinks im pretty or whatever or if someone likes me but just doesnt show it, like one of those weird/awkward hidden crushes that i have with like a million boys but would never actually try to get with them idk 

sometimes i just think i look pretty and i wonder if other people think i do too or if im just having high hopes for myself l o l 

ugh i hate saying this because it’s stupid but i just really wish i was gorgeous 

like just really fucking gorgeous